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WInd carries me

Somehow I am lighter

By InSearchofSvet

March 29^th, 2019

Up and down, but mostly up

When I was younger I used to think that the older I'll get the easier life will become. Not in terms of routines, like job, responsibilities, kids and etc, but in terms of making decisions. I thought things will be more clear and I wouldn't doubt myself and my choices so much. But somehow it turned out to be the opposite.

Lately my life became somewhat an organised mess. What seems like a dream lifestyle to someone is just well managed chaos, which luckily seems to be working out somehow, but drains quite some energy from me, and neither I am sure how much longer I can sustain my life in this state, neither I understand where I actually want my life to go.

One thing is clear tho, I need more random days like this.

A lot of people ask me if I actually have a real job. The answer is yes and no. Together with my good friend, we create photo and video content for sale on stock platforms, and I also do some small photography and production freelance gigs here and there. It gives us the freedom to hardly ever make plans.

It actually feels like we never work, but we also ALWAYS work.

Working for stocks often means playing happiness or creating idyllic situations. Like look at that cover photo. #happy #relationshipgoals #vanlife couple on the sunset? In reality it's just me and my good friend, pretending to be a couple in front of a van borrowed from my parents for 4 days on a condition that I will pay for next year insurance coverage, during 5 minutes lasting sunset during which we had to shoot photos, videos and drone shots. Believe me, it's all a lie out there. Maybe not a complete lie, but definitely an improved image of reality.

The photos you'll see now will show you a perfect little getaway. But bear in mind, 6 of us slept in a tiny 2 bedroom apartment, guys had to guide cycling groups, they didn't shower in order to rush to film the sunset, and sometimes faked the climbs, just to make a drone shot. But hey, we all do that sometimes, right?

As usually it works out here, I started this post with one idea and then moved away into something completeeeely different. But hey, you, yes you, out there, who actually made it this far through the text and didn't just skip straight to the photos, thank you.

It means a lot.

Sometimes even those of us who are constantly surrounded by people, feel lonely. And it is really fucking nice to be able to vent somewhere knowing that someone actually will listen (read it).

-How has it been going lately?

-Up and down, but mostly up.

We took some strange turns onto gravel roads, ate mackerel from a can, rode bikes, watched sunsets and talked life. Thank you, guys. Hope we get to do it over and over this summer.